well, i made the two auditions at john robert powers, and i'll be starting classes soon.  so i have to change my work schedule.  the director of "that 70's show" is gonna be holding an audition at my acting school next weekend.  i am very excited and i'm kinda surprised that my parents are so supportive.  even though i still have been kinda bad.  and they are willing to pay so much money for the stuff i wanna try, like john robert powers is very pricey.  i hope all goes well though.

damn, don't you hate it when people talk shit about you behind your back?  people that you would consider sort of close to you?  well, i just think it is f.uckin idiotic and stupid trying to look cool when you are just plain dumb and lazy.well, off of THAT subject....

i have alergies really bad and i hate it!  my eyes make me look like a squinty-eyed b.itch, my throat and the roof of my mouth itches, my nose itches and is really runny and i sneeze a lot.  i am supposed to get my braces taken off next month.  i just went to my last appointment earlier this week and i was pretty close to getting them taken off.  but then again my dentist has been saying that i'm about to get them taken off for like the past 4 months.  maybe after i get my braces off, i won't look 15 anymore.  the talent agent at john robert powers said that since i look 16 but i'm really 19, i have so much more opportunity to do jobs that 16 year olds do.  and i'll always be able to market a younger age. 

well, that's all  i gotta go to work in a little while and i am still tired and have to get ready.

well, i got that second job and hopefully it goes well, cuz i'm already annoyed.  i just wanna save some money.  the resturant money will bascially  be my "play" money, although i'll try to save some of that up too and the money from the other job will be my "future" money. 

you know, it really hurts to be lied to.  but it hurts more when that person apoligizes, and you STILL don't know why that person lied or what REALLY happened.  but, as always, i accept an unacceptable apology.  damn my heart hurts. 

ok, the pill days are over....forever....ok!  so no more askin me to join in on the brain damaging fun....i said NO!

i have a lot of goals this year.  some are good goals and some are shallow.  but, hey, whatever makes me happy, yo.  here are just some of them that i can think of at the moment:

    1. save money

    2. get my damn freakin license

    3. lose weight

    4. get my face professionally microdebrasioned (is that a word?)

    5. get my teeth professionally bleached (after i get my braces taken off, next week, hopefully)

    6. graduate (in may)

    7. apply for college (start in the fall)

    8. stay in love